A beautiful day

Today's weather was just awesome. The sun was out, it was a little cool, and a nice light breeze. The only thing that sucked was it was warm enough to get all the bugs out there excited and active too. So we had severe ant occurrences, and lots of mosquito's. My friend Mike put money down on the trailer he is buying out here in the neighborhood I am in. I don't really want to call it a trailer court, when all we are is one dead end street. He got #24 ad we are in #18, so I will be able to hang out with him and his fiancee Lori, all the time.

I was super productive today. I went up to stepping stones, and got a ton of free groceries. Which I ended up taking three paper sacks to my moms for her. Also some one dumped two kittens at the church. It was so sad. One found a home, but no one ever wanted the other one, so I took it over to my moms, I knew that she would take it in. Turns out some one had dumped another kitten in Woodstock and my sister found it and brought it home. So I wasn't the first to bring her a cat! This kitten is pretty healthy unlike the other kitten I brought to her previously. Which sadly, after much love and care, passed away in its sleep.

I am no longer working at Hertz, so I am currently looking for a part time job. I have filled out a bunch of applications at the mall in Springfield, and have more I need to turn in.

Tomorrow my main focus is getting a our truck traded out for our correct truck and then working on moving a bunch of stuff to storage. Also I am going to go through our extra stuff and see what I can give to Mike and Lori for their new house. They were like me when I moved to Iowa when I was 18. I got my first apartment alone and didn't have squat. All my stuff was back in South Carolina with Chris. But there are a couple different programs around here that help out with things like that. Plus it helps a lot that the lot manager is really helpful too.

So life is interesting, but very good all at once!

Photo Blog #4 Things I have made

The first two pictures are of a picture I drew for my friend Mike at work. He is a pretty nice guy, and I put together a few ideas and made this. He really liked it.
Then the second set of pictures are cute little snow men ornaments I made for Swap Bot. I had to make ten of them, and I had sewed on buttons for each one, they have a rhinestone nose, seed bead eyes, and just used a sharpie to make the dots for the mouths. I thought that they came out well!

Wow, I haven't written in a week. Everything has been just just kinda rolling after one another here. The days are blurring together for me really. My mom got her new job at the radio station, and now she is cleaning her house like crazy to find all her business clothes. She has out grown a lot of them because she has gained weight. It isn't really obvious until she tries to squeeze into a size 6. Then it's like, wow you did. Other then that she looks awesome and I think will do really well with this job. It just pisses me off that they are handing this job to her on a platter, and she won't get them to hire me at all. I need a second job pretty badly too. I am inches away from applying at like a damn McDonalds or something. Which would make me utterly miserable. We are getting by OK right now money wise, but we are racking major car repair bills and such because we have to fix up Justin's car. Things are just stressful to me. Like I realized that I have to stay in this house longer. I am going to have to refinance it so I can keep it longer. Because if I don't then I have no place to put the two cars I owe money on, plus the van. So, I am going to get extra money to pay off debt and remodel the house. I want the basement completely finished off so I can put a large master bedroom and walk in closet down there. I have Mike coming over tomorrow to see about putting in the laundry shoot. Then he is also going to give me his opinion on getting the basement redone. He has redone his basement as well.

But basically that is all that is going on with me, besides the dumb cat(Sam) peed on the bed while we were watching One Piece on the computer. I have no idea what the problem is with my animals.

There is nothing like the power of guys when a girl gets upset! We were trying really hard to move the lumina by hand and it wasn't working at all. The front drivers side tire got flat and stuck in the ground over time and the other front tire was sunk in as well. After I realized that we had no tow chains, I got really upset, because we just couldn't come with a way to get it out. But then it dawned on me that we could jack it up and put some boards under the wheels. So Mike busted his ass getting them jacked up and we got boards stuck under there. We still couldn't get it moved, so we had Mike use this big SUV to push it. Which was awesome and scary all at once. I had to ride and steer the wheel. Then once we had it backed up, we tried to push it forward and it didn't go very far by hand, so once again he pushed with his truck. Which got it where it needed to be. Not that we will be able to get it out of there any time soon. But using our ghetto red neck ways, we all got it done. It was me, Mike, Justin, and Jeremy. Thanks guys, you are awesome!

I think everyone is starting to feel better after the major sickness. I am doing ok, still kinda sick, and Justin is doing so much better. My family is pretty good except for mom. I haven't been hungry since I threw up on sunday. Which I have eaten, but just because it hurt. I think I only eat because of the pain anymore. I worked on my snowmen ornaments I am making. They are almost done. I got another one in the mail today. I am not sure what it has to do with Christmas. But it is neat. I am reading the third twilight book right now. It is really really good. I saw the movie in theater with Mike over the weekend, and it was AWESOME. I love twilight. Mike is actually loaning me the third book that I am reading. It has snowed a bunch the past few days and it has made the roads pretty bad out. I think me and Justin are using sand this year instead of ice melt for the dogs sake and to help the drive way. Justins car died at WalMart and Butch help me go get it today. He thinks we have a fuel injector out. I am not sure. I have to figure out if we can get it to a shop this week. Jeremy has been driving us around. He is hanging out with my brother today. I watched tv with Mickey for a while. Which was fun. I like hanging out with my siblings. The Sebring is still up at the tow place, and I have to figure out what to do with it, because it is racking up a bill every day it is there. Today is my last day off until Christmas. It is so weird how time went by so fast.

I think I am up just way to early. But now we are down to one car and I had to drive Jeremy home from work, so I can go pick up Chris in justa little bit. Plus since I am up and about, I am taking the kids to school this morning as well. I have a ton of stuff to do today. With Michael leaving, it has just made realize I need to focus and work hard on my goals. I have been talking to my Mom about college and I have decided to go for it. I am going to enroll today. I don't need some one holding me back. I went and peeked in the windows of this house I want to buy and I am totally in Love. But there is one very similar two houses over and my mom says it is less and she and I would have a back yard divided by a fence. That would make me so happy, because thent he kids could come and go as they please. Even my eldest younger brother, Koty, comes down here to disapear from mom, so we would be right there. Plus I feel it is pretty safe, it is on the same street as the fire/police station.
Today I have to go to the salvation army, more then once, probably pick up the kids, go over to my moms, and go to the high school. SO I have a ton of errands I am running. Going over to my moms is not unusal though. I go over there almost everyday, and we talk on the phone at least ten times a day. It is really nice to have a supportive mom. With out her I think Michael would have hurt me more, because he was dragging things out and making me feel like crap. Plus the weird thing was when he was here I was having all these weird nightmares, but now that he is gone I haven't had any more. Being with him has made me realize I don't want to be him. I don't want to have no goals or career. So thats why I am going to get my assoc. degree in business and marketing. I want to get on as a event coordinator, or some thing similar at Prairie Meadows. I think I would really enjoy it. Plus the pay is really awesome.

Life Goes on

Well, life does go on I guess. Michael left to go back to North Dakota today, because he chose to be a teenager instead of a adult. There is not much more to say then he was a big disapointment and honeslty I have no faith in men anymore. Love does not exsist in this day and age. You always see successful older couples, but never younger ones. I don't need a child to hold me back form achieving my dreams and goals. So screw you michael. Some times there are battles in life you can't win period.

Well, my dogs never cease to amaze me at all. I have these pills my mom gave me to take to help my strep throat and I took one and set them on the floor. Well my thought was the bottle was child proof and I have no children, so who would it hurt to set them on the floor besides the couch??? Well, ave two young chihuahuas is like having very small toddlers, because some how Coco and Garth managed to get the bottle open and Coco was trying to eat one. But Michael managed to get it from her before she ate it. I think they didn't get any, but don't know for sure. Mom said that if they ate one it should only make them a little sick. So I am really relieved. I don't work this next week, so I hope I recover quickly and then we can finally get started on the remodel of this house!! I have not heard back about the final estimate on the basement yet. But I am very releived about the ost being lower then I expected. I read a book the other night, yes in one sitting, it was called chinese cinderella. It was really good. It was the story of a unwanted daughter in china back in the 1940's. It was a true story. it is hard to believe society can be so cruel at times. My little Coco is sleeping in my lap now. I don't know what I would do if didn't have my puppies. They are my babies. I am really proud of Coco, she is gettig more vocal about her needs. She whined in the kitchen today because they needed more water. Then Garth went potty outside when Michael took him out on one of his smoke breaks. So they are growing up so fast. I have pictures of Coco when I first got her and she was soooo tiny. I know it probably weird for some one to go on so much about their dogs, but mine are my life. I worry about them eating and their moods. They are just like children to me. They are spoiled because they have a bunch of outfits and tons of toys. Oh I got my replacement battery cover for my digital camera today in the mail. I am so happy. I miss using it. I have been using Michaels camera. Butch is going to put the new cover on for me! It really bummed me out whe it got broke, but it was only $15 to fix it.

I had this dream the other night and I am thinking it would make a really good story or book even. So if I get the time I am going to try to write it all down. It is pretty intense and emotional so I am hopeing I can handle expressing all that on paper. I Picked up Holden from school with Michael today. Poor Mickey has pink eye, so she out of school for a week. I remember when I was in middle school my teacher had pink eye. She came to school the whole week and it looked pretty bad. Mickey doesn't look too bad, but I still don't want to catch it. I have never had it. I have a huge list of chores that I want done today because I am trying to get the house arranged still. Todays tackle is the front porch. I hope it gets done, but moods aren't the best around here right now. I still feel pretty sick. So I don't know how much I can get done before I crash. My parents are rearrangeing hteir house right now too. It is like a very early spring cleaning. I think with all the snow, we are a little restlesss.

Well not much has been going on here lately except me getting things changed. I have been off work for a while so i am taking advantage of this time to get the house ready for the renovations and to be put on the market. I found another house I would really love to have and it is more of what I was looking for to begin with. So I am going to get a lot of things done and changed around here so that this house can be sold for it's full value and then I am going to take the profit and put it all down on another house. Hopefully the house I have in mind will still be on the market when this one sells. But I can hope and try! We have a lot of work to do. I have a wall that needs taken out to enlarge the kitchen. Some re-wiring needs to be done so we can put int he new stove and fridge. Then I already talked to the guy earlier this week and the costs for water -proofing the basement are much lower then expected. So I am very excited about it all. Both the bedrooms need repainted, because they are both done in pink. Which I would guess is not the most popular color. I have been doing a lot of research on home improvement projects, which are low cost, but can help sell and increase the value exceptionally.
I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I only got 6 hours last night, which wasn't too bad, but I didn't go to bed until 3:30 am and woke up a little after nine. So I feel ok, but then I am sick too. Jeremy worked his first over night shift. I am really proud of him, he did a lot of house work too. We did get a lot done yesterday and I am hoping we still get a lot done today. I am unsure of what Chris is working so I don't think we will have his help in the house work. Michael is off again tonight. Michael's night shift has been giving him a lot of trouble sleeping, so I think if he can't switch shifts then he might quit. It is making him sick. We are working on finding him some thing else right now anyway. But I felt like writing a update. Oh and I love the new group my mom started on yahoo. It is a really nice way to keep all the Newton community working with each other.

Well, not many exciting things happened today. I changed my bill pay over to budget for the gas bill. Jeremy got paid so I have to run around and pay bills tomorrow. Michael and I went and picked up the kids from school. Then we went over to my moms. We talked to her for a while about stuff and then I went out and shoveled her drive way. Most of the drive way, I left a little on the edges. I don't think Coco and Garth have chewed up anything today. That is amazing! I bought this shirt for Michael and it was really big on him and so we gave it to Jeremy. He looks really good in it. I caught Chris smoking in the basement again. I saw him stick the butt down the drain in the basement. Thats why he locked the door so he wouldn't get caught. I am really pissed off about that. Michael doesn't smoke in the house. I don't understand why Chris can't respect that.
I guess we will see how things got from there.
Today has gone by pretty fast though. But I think I will stay up late and clean. I am trying to get the laundry caught up. I go back to work on Sat. I can't wait, because I like money.

Well, I am have been super busy with the new year and all. Now I am a little ill. But it just because of being a girl, lol. I am on that time of the month. But now my great wonderful Michael lives with me. he is the best thing to ever happen to me. Really, he is just so sweet and handsome. I never thought I would be with such a good looking guy!! He is in bed now sleeping because he has to work tonight at the hotel. It is his first over night shift. I miss him while he is sleeping, but I want him to be able to stay up all night for work and all. Chris has started his new college classes and is loving them. He was going to move out at the end of the month, but we are going to put that off for a little while now, because money is really tight because I don't have any work hours for a while. But that has worked out to my advantage now. One of my New years resolutions was to get rid of a bunch of junk I never use, or have been trying to sell for a long time. I need to refresh the page of my life and get rid of some clutter. I have been freecycleing like crazy. Then I gave a big box to the salvation army and I have a big box I am taking over to the high school tomorrow. I am donating some old clothes to the clothing closet there. I am finally settled in some where, and I am un-pack ratting. Well, at least until I hit the summer garage sales!
But having Michael around has been a wonderful change. I love him so much. I have a feeling we will be together for a long time. We play video games together, and he makes me laugh. He is not perfect, but he is working on doing better. This is his first time living on his own. He is only a year younger then me, but comes from a very well off family. But he is willing to work hard. I love that about him. He is willing to do anything to make me happy. He likes my pets. He is a cat person so now Zoe loves him. It is cute to see him get excited over her. Then he likes the puppies too. But Garth is his favorite there. Coco is just too hyper for him. He really likes Jeremy. They are a lot alike and have a lot of the same interests and humor. I like seeing them hang out together, because it is almost like brothers. Chris is never around, but has done amazingly nice things for Michael. He went through and gave him a bunch of his old clothes, and then he was the one to hook Michael up with the job at the Econo Lodge. So it has been pretty awesome on that end. Chris is never really here though, because he is working for direct tv and the hotel, so he goes from one job tot he other and then sleeps and is out the door again. I miss my car! But since Michael has a car here, it hasn't been too bad. I love him!!

Well, I leave by train tomorrow to go to North Dakota. Then Michael and I drive back together the morning of the forth. I am very excited about it all. He is very wonderful. I can't wait to see him again. I feel as though I have not seen him for a long long time. But it was just before Christmas when I saw him last. I miss him a lot though. We will be together again soon and I can't wait! I am packing my bag up tonight. Coco has been such a sweet puppy. She is asleep in my lap now. I feel so bad leaving her again. But this time it will only be for like three days at most. I have never taken a train before so it should be interesting so say the least. I think it will be much more comfortable then the bus. I could have paided extra and gotten a bed car. Which would have been kinda cool, but I really didn't have the money for it.
Garth is such a lover. He is so cuddly when you pick him up and hold him. Then he loves to rest his head in your hands when you pet him.

Well, Michael may be coming sooner then I thought due to issues with his family. He is making me a little nervous, but I still have faith in him! I love him so much! Here are some new pictures I took just today!

Pictures from North Dakota

I have all these wonderful pictures from the trip. My camera needs repaired.
Micheal looks sooo cute with glasses.
We had a wonderful time hiking out in the bad lands.
There was a lot to see, North Dakota is beautiful.
The river was frozen.

I love being with him, we always have fun.
just a little too close
Me sitting on a rock
I thought black and white would be pretty.
I loved being close to Michael all the time.

You won't Believe This

Well it has surely been a while since I have written. The first week I did not write was because of so much work. We wrapped up our holiday parties then. Then this previous week was because I wasn't home! Yes, I was gone, out of state! It is probably the most adventurous and daring thing I have ever done in my life. I found out the Sunday before last that I only worked one day last week. I have been talking to Michael for a long time, both on the phone and online. I was really beginning to feel a very intense connection towards him. So I knew if I was to ever have the opportunity to meet him that this was my chance. SO I called him up on Sunday(16Th) and we made arrangements with him and his family for me to come and visit him. I left the very next day by greyhound bus and arrived Tuesday(18Th) morning around 4 am. Yes it was very spur of the moment and very scary and exciting. I rode the whole way there wondering if he would be some one besides the person I knew on the phone and the person I had grown close to in emails. We had met on myyearbook.com. The entire ride there I could not believe that I was doing such a crazy thing. But then in the back of my mind I thought it could be love. He was everything I was looking for in a guy(including hot!). When I finally did arrive there, he was at the bus stop waiting for me. We hugged and had our first kiss right then and there. It wasn't exactly perfect, because it was about 15 degrees in North Dakota at the time!
He took me back to his house and showed me his room where I would stay while he slept in the family room. I put down my stuff and got comfortable. We laid on his bed and talked for a long time, but at some point we fell asleep. He had to work that day, but I was so tired from the trip that I slept most of the time he was at work.
Most of my trip after that blurs together, because there were so many happy moments. We went hiking and went shopping together. I got to meet some of his friends and some of his family. Every second we spent together I felt closer and closer to him. I have to say now, and I have not said this in a long long time, but I am now truly in Love with Michael. He is everything I have ever wanted. Because he knows what it is like to go through what I have been through. He is also bi-polar like me and is on medications for that as well as depression. We have been through such similar things and see things a lot a like. We were born only a year and 5 days apart. Making us both Gemini's. Which is really unique in itself. But he is truly everything I could ask for in a guy. He is tall, thin, handsome, funny, smart, and caring. He played football in high school and was in drama and chorus. He sings and that is soooo sexy. He calls me princess and treats me like one too. He is always telling me how much he loves me. I could not ask for more!
Michael works at Wal-Mart right now. We want to be together as soon as we can and he is moving here in Jan. The last week of Jan. I will be going up to him and driving with him on the way back. I am very excited. I am going to be taking a second job at prairie meadows as a cocktail waitress. The extra money would be so wonderful.
I really missed my family and the puppies while I was gone. I got stuck up in Minneapolis Minnesota on my way back and Butch drove all the way up there to get me so I could be home for Christmas. I had a very very wonderful Christmas with my family.