Plans for my son

Well, I feel I don't get to talk enough about my baby, my son, or anything, so I am gonna put all my thoughts out here in the open. This post may be a little random.

First off, I write in a journal. I usually set some sort of rule on this and write like everyday, but in trying to stay as stress free as possible I write when the mood strikes me. Normally I write when there is some thing I want to share with my son, Aries, or when some major changes or events go on. Like I write when ever I have a doctors appointment to tell him how it went and how well he is doing. Then I also wrote recently to tell him I finally got a new van to be my mommy van to drive him around in. I originally only planned to write in this while pregnant, but I think I will just keep writing him until the book is full. I am not sure yet when I plan to give the book to him to read, most likely when he is a teenager, or out of high school. Also this way if anything ever happens to me, he will always have this book and know he is so loved.

These aren't the cars I have for my son, but a good example. One thing I really want is for him to have a butt ton of hot wheels or match box cars. When I was a kid it was just me and my brother until I was 13 and my other brother was born, and I have really fond memories of spending hours playing little made up games or stories with my brothers toy cars. We didn't get along much, and when we did this was one really good memory I have, and I would love to see my little guy fall in love with these cars too. I already have a ton, and pick them up where ever I can find them cheap.

Another big thing I wanted before he was born was a good mommy van. I have spent half or more of my driving life driving vans, and I knew that is what I wanted to haul my son around in. Not only that is I wanted something newer, and nicer to rely on and see to it he was safe. I was able to get a 2002 Ford Windstar. I drove a 1998 Ford Windstar until March of 2012, when a drunk driver totaled it while it was parked on the side of the road. It was always a good van, and I have found this one to be very reliable too. It has the dual sliding doors so it will be easy to get a car seat out either side, and fit people and stuff in and around a car seat too. It needs a little work, but with a little TLC it will be a good van for many years to come. As long as no one wrecks it while parked, like my last one.

Speaking of cars, I grew up in a house hold that never encouraged me to learn how to drive, would not pay for drivers ED and never allowed me to drive their vehicles. I don't want the same for my son. I have already figured out that if I save so much per year, my son can buy a decent starter car on his 15th birthday to learn to drive in. It roughly comes to $67 a year, and if we put it some where it will earn any interest then he can get something even nicer. Now, nothing was ever handed to me, and this car won't be handed to him either. In the year he is learning how to drive, it won't cost him anything to drive it. No joy riding, but he will learn about maintenance, cleaning, and car care. Once he turns 16 though, he can get his licence, but if he wants to drive he has to pay for it. Get a part time job that makes enough to pay for part of the cost of insurance, and cover all his gas. As well as regular maintenance, like if it needs a oil change, he would pay for that. If it needs new tires, he would pay some, but I don't mind paying for most of it if he is responsible. I also have no problem taking the car away if he can't take care of it, or if he wrecks it, he is basically out of luck there. Then he has a choice, when he moves out he can either buy his own car, or buy the one he has been driving off me for a fraction of the cost that was paid for it. I strongly believe everything must be earned. Otherwise how would he appreciate anything he has?

When it comes to preschool, from my experiences, I am not really interested in glorified daycare. None of the children in my family went to preschool and I have met a lot of dumb people (and kids sadly) who have. So I feel it doesn't give my son any advantage to be there when I can teach him at home. Now the year before he starts school, I was considering like 2 or 3 days a week of half day preschool, just to get him used to the idea of going to school everyday. Nothing full time though. At this point in time I am all for public schools and think the social interaction is very important. I don't think I would consider home schooling, but if I did I would really only be interested in community home schooling where you get together with other home schooled kids and families several times a week and do activities and lessons. I would hate to cut my child off from the world. I don't really know much about Ohio schools, I can only hope they are good.

When it comes to activities, clubs, hobbies, I want to encourage my son to do everything he can. Justin never did anything in school, nothing. I was involved in tons of art related things, color guard, key club, drama, and others and I am glad I did them. Although most of them were cut short due to my parents would not fund them or would not drive me to them. I really do not want to be one of those moms that drives their kids to 50 different activities a week, but if he found a few things he really enjoyed and was passionate about I would do anything to support him.

30 Things I want my kids to know about me Part 3

Here is the third installment of my 30 things list.
Number 5:
What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
1. Justin. He makes me smile everyday and is the light of my life.
2. My pets. I love my dogs Coco, Cami, and Furby. Even though Quinn isn't living with me currently, it makes me really happy to see him.
3. My crafts. Being creative and making something always makes me happy.
4. Being Pregnant. It may not be the actual pregnancy itself, because I am sick as hell, but I am finally going to have my own baby and be a mom. I feel like a real woman.
5. Sleeping, honestly. Being pregnant has given me such super real and weird dreams that sleeping is actually more enjoyable then usual.

Number 6:
If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
1. Wealth. Pay off my debt, buy a nice house, buy a nice car(my dream mommy van), and have money to send my kid to college and go to Disney World.
2. Perfect health for me and my family.
3. World Peace? I really don't know because the first two make my life perfect.

Number 7:
What is your dream job, and why?
This is an easy answer. I want to own and run my own thrift store. I worked for a year at a GoodWill store and LOVED what I did. But being there made me realize there are so many things they could do to help out the environment or the community. They could have donated broken ceramic dishes to the local high school to make mosaics with or we had a teacher come in asking for wire hangers, paying out of his pocket, so his students could do a project. Our store didn't sell them, they threw them out, BUT we weren't allowed to give anything away, not even trash. I want to run the kind of store that builds community value, helping where it can. A place that recycles more, and throws away less, and makes the world a better place. That's my dream job.

Number 8:
What are 5 passions you have?
1. Art. That is my biggest one. I love to paint, draw, scrapbook, and just plain create.
2. Being Eco Friendly/Frugal. I like to save money and do good for the environment. I know I could do more, but I try to save on my trash output, reuse when ever I can, and recycle.
3.Reading and Writing. I love a good book, and I love to write when ever I can.
Since I condensed my passions I only have three.

Number 9:
List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
1. My Mom. She was a super strict parent, and although she made a lot of my life hell she taught me important things like proper cleaning, and the importance of being organized.
2. Helen Keller. Never met her obviously, but I learned about her in elementary school and her will to learn and survive was and is very inspiring to me.
3. Maya Gaskins-Hickman. This girl taught me that being weird is ok, and she taught me how to shop, and trust me, that is more important then you would think.
4. Justin Moran. He taught me what true happiness is, and that everything is worth working through.
5. My first high school love. I would rather not name. He taught me that there was love out there, before him I had never been happy with a guy and didn't know I could be.
6. Mr. Stone. He was my 6th grade teacher and he was the first teacher to really open my eyes to my love of education and learning. He made learning cool.
7. Mr. Hurt. He was my middle school art teacher. He changed my perspective on art and let me run loose with the art supplies. I thank him for opening those doors.
8. My Grandma 'Mamaw'. She showed me not all love is the same. She taught me how to knit and do plastic canvas work, and never discouraged my creative side.
9. My Dogs. Oddly yes. You come home every day to them and they are happy to see you and love you. I try to remember that, because no matter what everyone deserves to be loved, your dog thinks so.
10.Jeremy Malone. Yes that dork. He has taught me it is okay to be goofy, to love weird things, and to have a passion for games. His influence has taught me to enjoy life more.
 

November!

Wow, it is so crazy November is already here! I had a pretty good October, with the minor exception of Jeremy losing his new job. But I went and got my nails done for the first time!

I love how they turned out! Things are going well and I am deep into my Christmas shopping. I already have gifts for everyone in my household. I have no idea what to buy my brother and sister! I dont really know what they are into. I did purchase several Halloween markdowns today, but I have to say my favorite is the pumpkin piggy bank I got.

It was only $5 at Target!

American Eagle

Well, Thursday I start at American Eagle, in the Springfield Mall. I am really excited because I have never worked in a name brand clothing store. I worked at Goodwill selling used clothes, and at Walmart selling generic clothes. This will be my first time actually shopping and selling some expensive clothes! I am very excited though, because I plan on getting Justin lots of new jeans with my discount. I am not sure how much my discount is, but if it makes them more comparable to Walmart Prices, I would really be a happy camper. So I am counting down the days!

Thoughts for the night

So before I head to bed tonight many thoughts are running through my head as I lay here right before sleep. First off I think back on the amazing weekend I had. My wonderful mega sunday date with Justin to the renaissance fair, flea market, and mall. My fun Saturday with just the boys at the mall. Then barely a week before my great anniversary date with Justin to Olive Garden.
Things have been going pretty well. I have been working at Hertz as a manager in training for over a week now and I really enjoy it. I am actually getting a lot of this computer work down!
My thoughts run back to how crazy and unpredictable my life truely is. Just a year ago I was moving to Ohio and my heart set on adoption. Then when that failed me, we tried ourselves for a baby. Now oddly a baby is the last thing I want. I have the chance to have a career now and I am really focused on it. We are also working on Justins credit and paying off our debt. So hear I am, living in a trailer I own, and in a job I never thought I would have!
Then I remember two years ago nearly I was living with 15 dogs and 3 cats! Now I responsibily just have my Coco. Things have changed so much, but I feel it is all for the good. I feel I am a much more mature and responsible person.  Justin has grown as a person too. He is healthier and makes wiser choices. We have been together for three years now and although it has bee crazy, it is all worth it. I take a bit of every experience and keep it with me, to better me as a person.

Great News! Justin got told today that they will be starting work ASAP! Which is gonna be great. He will be out of state for nearly two months, but will be back in time for my birthday. I am getting a lot of hours at my new job. I like it a lot. When Justin goes to his new job I may go visit him and see the sites down there. He is going to Omaha,NE. I am gonna miss him, but I think the time apart will be good for us. Plus I think this job is going to toughen him up a lot. All the dogs are doing good on their house training so far. Mom is loving her new Pomeranian Abby. She is a sweet little fluff. I have been cleaning out my storage like crazy. I am selling my sectional sofa, and a lot of my bigger furniture. If I can get everything together I may have a yard sale this Saturday. My mom is going through her stuff too. Not as fast as me, but I am one of those people that I want things done fast!

It has been a while since I have written. I have been so busy with life. Recently I moved two houses down from my mom. Being close to her is very wonderful. I like being able to see her any time I want and we go places together all the time. I have been working hard to get things ready to become a parent. It has been fun and interesting to getting things ready. I got rid of the cats and now only have four little dogs. House training is coming alone very well. But I do have little escape artists, who like to find new ways to get out of the fenced yard. Although I have donated over 50 boxes of stuff to the salvation army this year, I still have much more stuff to go through and get done. My goal is not to have to have a storage unit or at least get down to one! My mom still has two huge ones and they are full!! My book is coming along in pieces, weird little pieces. So I am not sure how that will end up. I started a new job, which ensued enough stress that I have decided to leave the library. I am really going to miss working there very much. I love books and wish the house I lived in now had the kind of room I needed for all my books. A lot of my stuff is packed up, so I really need to sort it all so I can have access to what I need to use. Having things in a storage really is pointless most of the time. I have been kicking butt on photo albums, not only for me but for family as well. Kinda going through a photo frenzy. That's about it for an update on my life. There is probably more, but I am slightly overwhelmed with it all.

Changes

Wow, it has been a long time since I have written, but that's okay. I have been super busy with a lot of different things! First off Coco's puppies will be nine weeks old on Sunday and they are still for sale! As well as Egypt, who is eight months old this month. We couldn't get our basement fixed at our old house, so we decided moving was the best option. After being given a long run around, we were able to get financed to buy a three bedroom manufactured home at the Sunrise Terrace Mobile Home park. The house has to stay here for four years, after that we plan on moving it to some land we plan on buying between now and then. We moved in here the last week of September, and so far I love it here. We are building custom shelves into the living room wall, so we have a nice place to store all our movies in there. I have been working on sanding and staining the wood myself. Chris is the builder and puts it all together. I think I am going to put one big shelf in my bedroom as well, for all my books. The master bedroom has a large garden tub that looks like a hot tub! I love all the space we have here. Plus they gave us our own space to store my car. Justin finally got me to go to one of this Pokemon tournaments with him. I played and had a blast. We are planning on going back again.
The house is still a moving mess for the most part. I don't work at Wal-Mart anymore. I got fired for stupid reasons, which was proven since I get unemployment from them. I still work at the library, but I am looking for a desk job at a hotel preferably. My Lyme's is up and down right now, I haven't finished transferring all my paper work yet so I can see my family doctor, instead of the dude in Grinnel who was ripping us off. I have been having big issues with putting things off lately, I know about things I have to get done, but I just seem to forget until I am in bed at night. It is very frustrating. I have been working on it.
A couple of days ago, we decided to take on a special needs dog. Her name is Lulu and she came from a drug house. She is ten weeks old and can't walk. Basically our goal is in the next six months is to teach her how to walk and be a normal dog her age. She is a sweet white terrier mix. She is always so happy too. Today we got her to play with all the puppies and it was pretty fun. We did have one couple come and look at buying one of the puppies today, but they said they would have to think about it. They were looking for a smaller chihuahua then these. Mine at the biggest are only ten pounds, but then I guess they were looking for something tiny. I really need to get at least one sold because I am taking Coco in to get fixed in a week and a half. So I could really use the money for that.
My family has the flu, so I am avoiding them for now. I have started my Christmas shopping. Everyday is a challenge to unpack more and get stuff done!

It has been a while since I last updated. I just haven't been in the writing mood even though I have a lot to write about. Coco had her puppies on Aug. 16th. She gave birth to six live puppies and one still born fetus. That is an amazing record for a chihuahua. Sadly the next day the runt of the litter died. He had a lot going against him, because when he was born he was half the size of the others, and Coco bit off his umbilical cord too short and bit a whole in his stomach. Chris and I tried so hard to save him. We even took him to the vet. In the end though his little heart couldn't support his body. Chris buried him in the front yard. I cried all after noon that day. Yesterday Chris spent all day putting up a fence around the entire yard so we can take the dogs outside. He even custom made a gate for it! It looks great. Justin helped out by pulling weeds and a bunch of plants we didn't want. We are going to lay down some pavers the make a area for the trash cans. It is going to look really nice.

I have already had one company come out and do a estimate on the basement. It needs water proofing and reinforcement done. It came to a larger total then I first expected, so now I am checking with other companies and looking into financing. Once we have the basement water proofed then we can slowly work on making it into several different rooms that I want and need. I am considering going into the grooming business, but haven't really decided yet.

I got curtains for Chris's room on sale at Walmart, they are navy blue. It was an awesome deal. I also found a really good deal on tennis shoes for Chris and Justin, both them needed a new pair pretty bad. Things are going pretty well here now, we are getting along well. I haven't been to work at walmart in nearly a month. I am still waiting for paper work to process. I went and applied for unemployment today, and they said I should get it. A lot of stuff has been going on lately. Things have been getting done and that makes me pretty happy too. The yard is looking good and so is the house too. So I feel like I have finally accomplished something around here. Which is hard to do because I am always so tired. My Lyme's gives me such bad fatigue. I am so tired right now it isn't funny.

I haven't written in a while. Mostly because I play Sims and update that blog more with my current story line. I have been working a lot too. Justin lost his job on Friday. So even if I am sick I have to work to pay the bills. If he doesn't get a job in two weeks then off to flipping burgers it is. He won't just sit around jobless. I am going Monday to see if my co-signer will qualify for the home loan with us, and I am very excited. I think it will go well. I also have a back up. If all goes as planned I want to be moved by the end of the month. I have so many people interested in the apartments it is crazy. I have the down payment saved already and everything else is set in motion. I am pretty proud of myself for handling everything really. I have been working two jobs, plus I am more sick then I have been before. The first few days to a week I am was on my medication for my Lymes Disease I felt great. Now the bacteria is fighting back and I feel like dirt. I have gotten some sort of infection in my kidneys now. It is a stabbing pain. It woke me up this morning. The fatigue has gotten worse. Although it doesn't last as long.
I think the hardest part of my disease is what it does to my memory. I have really bad memory, especially short term. I often repeat myself, and ask questions m ore then once. I forget where I am going or what I am doing. Thank god I have Justin to help me remember to take all the meds that I am on. I am on four different things, that I take at three different times during the day.
Not like I don't have enough to do already, I have decided to foster a dog.
http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=13823746
Her name is Cody and she will be staying with me until she can find a forever home. She seems like such a sweet dog. I hope bringing her to Iowa will help her find a true home.
That's all that is going on now, not much else really.

I don't I have done much interesting with my life. I have been to Adventure Land a few times, I have lived in a few different states, I have attended six different schools, but honestly, nothing really amazing. I just turned 22 earlier this month. I am almost a quarter through my life, and I don't really feel like I have done much interesting. I bought my first house at age 20. It felt like so much then, and now, I just feel like I have could have done more with my life.
I own a guitar I never learned how to play. I still can't drive a stick shift car properly.
But.... I guess over all I am pretty lucky. I have four loving dogs, two cats, and a amazing boyfriend who treats me like a princess. Honestly I don't think I would be able to live without any of them. I don't have a ton of friends, but if I really needed the ones I have, they would be there for me.
I have been really feeling over whelmed lately, because I am working at the library and walmart all the time and I am trying to get things done at home. I am lucky Justin has such great patience with me.
Well, basically this blog was just a random rant to get some thoughts off my mind.

Life has been interesting for sure. I have been doing some volunteer work for Clothing Without Walls. I am really loving it. I like helping out with a cause that helps other people. I am hoping that I can eventually help them raise enough money to help with catch up with the rent of the building they are in. I have been working at the Library for a few weeks now and I like it. Except some times it is way too quiet. I have a had a migraine for the past few days, which has sucked really bad. My court date for the puppies is coming up on May first. I am looking forward to seeing that creep in court.

Things have been kinda quiet around here mostly. My moms garden is growing well and the weather is finally starting to warm up super nice. It rained a little today, but other then that, the sun was shining all day long. It was beautiful. I went by moms and she made me little cards for me to hand out to people for clothing without walls. Krystal has been helping me and Justin helps on Tuesday nights. Jeremy won't help at all. I really like volunteering though. I can't wait to go back on Tuesday, I have a bunch of hangers to be sorted out between now and then though.

I guess this is just a little update on me. I got a second job at the library. I like it. All I really do for the most part is put away books in the children's section. I can pick up some extra hours the week after next. The house is looking pretty nice. The realtor came and looked at it and now I am just waiting to hear back from her on where to go from here. Mickies 7th birthday party was last night. I gave her a kite, a rock star barbie dress up kit, a barbie wallet, a Bratz doll with computer game stuff, and a princess sleep mask. We had breakfast for dinner which was fun.

I am a happy camper for sure. Today we got the new coat rack hung up, and the coats put on it. I had a appointment scheduled for Barneys to come out and move the car, and that they did. So now it is safely in the garage, and are yard is now up to legal standards. I am happy about it. The carpets were cleaned on sat, and they look good. I put down rugs to protect them from having to be cleaned again. When the sebring was put in the garage, we found out a bunch of the bolts came loose and fell off the door, so we went to True Value, and picked up the bolts for it. They are really nice there. I was going to put them on today, but it got really cold out and flurried a little. We also folded six loads of laundry today, and got it all put away. I packed up some more boxes as well. So all in all, today was productive, and I think it was a good day. Oh, and we changed the furnace filter. I almost forgot the best part of today!! Justin had an interview with TPI!! I am so excited, it went very well and we will find out in the next few weeks if we gets it!!

Thanks Mom

Thanks mom for always reminding me what a failure I am. I came to you today for your advice and help to get me on the road to a better career path. But instead you threw back in my face how I wouldn't be able to handle the careers I suggested and how I did nothing but screw up my past. You reminded me that I never finished cosmetology school, but yet when I mentioned finishing it up you gave me a nasty reply of why would I do that? SO I guess I don't understand why you want me to be a failure. I left your house crying today, because I know that's all you see me as, just one major fuck up. I am trying so hard to fix things in my life so it is the way I want it to be. Whats wrong with wanting something better? Whats wrong with being willing to work for it? I wanted to take some college courses and maybe earn a certification or something that will help me find a better job that will give me the life I want. I know when I left I said hurtful things, but you hurt me, alot, so I hope they hurt you too. I thought you would be proud that I came to you, that I wanted to do something better. I didn't realize I would be so wrong. I am sorry I am such a failure.

So much has happened today. I had a good day, a bad day, and just a day all together. I feel worn out, happy and depressed all in one. Why does life have to be so up and down? It started out with Justin going to court and my dad went with him. He got the tickets reduces partially, but in the end they all came out $830. We have until the end of the year to pay them. It is just so much, and the car is totaled too. I still owe $8,000 on the car as well. Then we went home and unloaded half the garage to get out the extra washing machine, because my older machine died. That was a hassle. We stored a bunch of Justins crap in the trunk of the Sebring. He needs to sort through it, so we just stuck it in there. I also found some Christmas presents for the kids in there, that I will give them for their birthday. Then Krystal called and invited us over for a pizza and movie night. Which was super awesome. We had a blast over there. I had a lot of fun just joking around with her and Dale. We were watching the Alien and Predator movies. They know all kinds of neat information about the movies. We watched two and a half movies. I think we will be going back soon to watch the rest of the movies they have.

But the other bad news of the day was when we finally picked up the car from the shop. They did some stuff for free, which was awesome. But Justin didn't take very good care of this car and there was a lot wrong with it. The total bill came out to $800. Which just blew me away all together. But it runs pretty nice. My dad still needs to replace the spark plug wires. Magnum did a really awesome job on the car and I would refer them to anyone any day. The bill was high, but any where else I would have had at least over a grand total. So they are pretty awesome. I just don't know how we are going to get out of all this debt. I am going to go over to moms house tomorrow and work on the bills then. I picked up my check from work and it was small. I am just stressed over the whole thing. I don't know how we are going to catch up. :(

There has been so much yet so little going on here really. I rearranged the bedroom to make it better for when Coco has her puppies in a few weeks. She is huge so I assume at least three. She is handling it very well, except, she does whine more now. I love her though.
I have come to realize I do not like Justin when he is tired. He gets very grumpy. Not that he really does anything, but just his attitude. Which usually makes me think he is mad at me. So first I am hurt, and then kinda sad. Then after a while I end up getting mad at him being a grouch. Now that he has left for work, I just feel bad that he has to work tonight, when he is so sleepy. I am really proud of him. We talked to the people at TPI and we are both being considered for their next round of interviews. I am very excited about that.
I got the dishes caught up, and a decent about of house work done, with the exception of laundry. We still have no washing machine. Which is starting to look bad, because when I cleaned out the bedroom I found a bunch of laundry that had been stashed at the end of the bed. So along with regular laundry there is extra laundry.
It has been weird for me to have two days off in a row, but I go back to work tomorrow, and then not another day off for five days straight. I don't mind really. If I don't go to work, I get some serious cabin fever going on because of all the snow. The car won't start right now because of it being below zero or just too close. Plus Magnum hasn't called about getting the parts in for the car yet. When they call though I need to get it up there and hopefully this problem will go away. If it weren't for the car trouble it has caused me, I honestly wouldn't mind winter. It is a part of life and can be very beautiful. But I needed to do things, like go over to my moms to balance my check book, and take swap stuff to the post office. I really miss doing lots of swaps. I loved getting the mail.
Every year for the past four years I think, I have just decided I wanted one big thing for my birthday. Two different years it was a sewing machine, one year was my digital camera, and last year was my laptop. I have decided what I want this year and it is a weird request for sure. I want these clothing racks that are commercial grade Z racks. They use them at goodwill and I looked them up on amazon.com and found out how much they cost. There are two different ones and I need two of each I think. Maybe more, but that would be an awesome start. They run roughly at $80 each with shipping. There are some sellers on ebay that have some that are about $20 to $30 cheaper, but we all know ebay changes day to day. But these racks are on wheels, and are meant to carry very heavy loads. I have killed every single clothing rack walmart carries. I have even bought their super heavy duty ones, and I have put them in their grave. I just own so much clothes and there is so much I want to hang up. It is the best storage method so I can get to everything I need to. Plus if I get these racks, I can push one aside while I look through another. Almost using them like you would turn the pages of a book. But I will have to wait and see how we are sitting in June. That is when I plan to refinance the house and hopefully start the remodel on the basement.

Well, today was long. Very long. I was supposed to have the day off but I worked for another cashier who had a family emergency. I ended up working a full eight hours. Which kinda went by quick, but then dragged at times. After work Krystal stopped by and gave me my Christmas present. It was a pretty light green shawl. I like it a lot and plan to use it a lot. Then we took the gifts over to my moms and we all opened our presents form each other there. I got two really beautiful framed pictures that were made by my mom. It is hard to describe so I will have to take pictures of everything. Then I also got a kind of friendship necklace from Jeremy for me and my sister. The necklaces read big sister and little sister. Mom also got me a warming scarf and some neat folding shoe totes. Me and Justin gave each other one present tonight and we are saving the rest for tomorrow. He got me the laptop carrying case I wanted, and he opened the one gift where I got him the first and second spider man dvds. He really liked them. I love the case and can't wait to use it. I like to take my laptop to my moms and I haven't much lately. We will probably be there most of the day tomorrow, so I will probably take it with me. I finally finished the fourth book in the twilight series. It was really really good. I love twilight. I can't wait for the other movies. I am probably going to be reading a lot of fan fiction about it in the future. Over all today was really good. It was weird with walmart closing and stuff. Jeremy's mom is super nice and is going to be taking Justin to his second job in the mornings that they work together. The car is down again, but I am going to try to start it tomorrow. It got too cold and the engine needs a serious tune up and probably an oil change. I am not sure if we can afford any of that right now. Justin got an ipod from my parents and he is anxious to use it. He is allowed to listen to music at work. I am so in love with him. I couldn't be happier.

Today was a pretty good day in the end. I got to spend a lot of time after work with Justin. Jeremy and me both have gym memberships now, so we can work out together. Which will be fun. Justin got some of his Christmas shopping done and I am going to wrap more presents tomorrow. I have to make a bunch of phone calls about jobs and my one credit card. I tried to use it for a small purchase and it got denied, which is weird because I have a good amount available on it. SO I am gonna call and figure out what the deal is. Then I need to call my other card company and have then reissue me a card, because I have miss placed it around the house and I want to use some of it. I haven't used them in months. Then Justin has to call the one company he goes through and change his rates. In three days I will have worked at WalMart for two months. I am not doing swaps for a while, but when the opportunity arises I pick up things really cheap for my swaps. Like I got wind up sushi for a quarter a piece. Sounds weird, but I think it will be a good trade gift for on swap bot. It has been snowing like hell here and the roads suck.

I got this new bottle of face wash. It is the Clean & Clear Morning Burst facial scrub. I really like it. It smells really good. It exfoliates and doesn't burn the way some scrubs do for me. I need to get a new lofa, my old one was eaten by dogs. Love them, but they are a pain in the butt. If I don't wash my face enough then it itches. Which wouldn't be so bad, but I itch it at work, and don't realize I am doing it at all. Then some one will point out that part of my face is red. Justin is sweet, he keeps me from itching or chewing on my nails. I don't really bite them, but they have been breaking off so much lately, that when they get jagged I bite them. So I have to watch or I will completely chew them off! I have never had some one watch out as closely for me as Justin does, it can be wonderful( though some times annoying.) I wouldn't trade him for the world.

I didn't get anything done around the house today. Justin did, he is amazing. He cleaned instead of sleeping for work. We broke our drain plug for the sink and we are having a hard time finding a new one that fits right. So dishes keep getting postponed. I got a awesome deal on some tupperware tonight. They were only 75 cents for two really big bowls, and a tiny one. They were in sets like that, so we got two. I need to organize my tupperware and get rid of stuff with no lids or bottoms. They have some other tupperware on sale and I will see if they have any more tomorrow.

Asia ripped into one of the Christmas presents. I will have to re-wrap it now. I don't mind too much because she didn't hurt the present. I rearranged the dinning room and the little brat can jump and climb on more stuff then Garth and Coco can. So she is a pain. She can be really smart too and knows how to get around things. I had to put a baby lock on the cabinet under the sink because she figured that one out! But she is a sweet dog, and still just a puppy. She just turned five months old a few days ago.

I have a terrible head cold and it is killing me. But I have to go to work in about an hour and tough it. But I have to do what I have to do. Justin didn't get the job with Calirs. They said they didn't have a position for him. This is extremely upsetting. I applied at the Newton Village today. I hope to hear from them. I also applied at the dollar store and plan on talking to the manager before I go to work tonight. I really hope either Justin or I can get a second job soon, because if we don't, things are going to start going bad really fast. But other then being sick things are ok here at the house. Zoe is more loving then usual and Sam is weirdly attached to Justin. The dogs some how spilled their water bowl and it leaked through the floor to the basement. So we are dealing with drying that now. Which brought me to the realization that I need to wash their food rugs. They got wet, so now they stink. But anyways, thought I would drop a little update.