All or Nothing

Well, me and Justin finally found our song. It came to us, and I love it. This is the first time a rock song has been my special song. The song is All or Nothing, by Theory of a Deadman. Here are the lyrics.
When I first saw you standing there, You know, was a little hard not to stare.
So nervous when I drove you home, I know, being apart's a little hard to bear.
Sent some flowers to your work, in hopes that I'd have you in my arms again.
We kissed that night before I left, still now it was something I could never forget.
You've got all that I need
Looking at all or nothing, Babe it's you and I,
with you I know that I'm good for something so let's go and give it A try.
We've got our backs against the ocean, It's just us against the world.
Looking at ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
Looking at ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
Let's take a chance, go far away, today and never look back again.
Since I said I loved you in Las vegas.
It's never been the same since then.
You've got all that I need
Looking at all or nothing, Babe it's you and I,
with you I know that I'm good for something so let's go and give it a try.
We've got our backs against the ocean, It's just us against the world.
Looking at ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
Looking at ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
This is it, nothing to hide, one more Kiss, never say goodbye.
This is it, baby you're all mine.
Looking at all or nothing, babe it's you and I,
I know that I'm good for something so let's
Go and give it a try.
Got our backs against the ocean, it's just us against the world
Looking at all or nothing, Babe it's you and I,
with you I know that I'm good for something so let's go and give it A try.
We've got our backs against the ocean, It's just us against the world.
Looking at ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.
Looking At ALL or nothing, babe it's you and I.

I think I was actually able to catch up with all the laundry we were behind on. Which makes me really happy. Now I just have to catch up on dishes, lol. Justin and I are planning on going out with some friends on wed. I am looking forward to that. It should be really fun. I ordered my certificate today for my ordainment. I have been ordained for over a year, but have never officially married any one or anything. I am hoping that I can in the near future though. I am going to be the officiant at my friend Krystals wedding. That is going to be one cool and odd wedding. They are going all out with a fantasy kind of theme. There are so many different aspects playing a part in it, it is hard to label it with one title. But they are doing exactly what they want, so I am happy for them. I have been thinking of a lot of different things I want to do for my wedding.
Coco is due Feb. 4th, and looks like she could pop any day now. I am keeping a very close eye on her. I worry a lot about her and her health. I did get her some dog vitamins to help her out. She just looks so sad and waddles around. I love her so much though. She is my baby.
I finished the first strip for my knitting project I started. I am started on the next one now. I am going to make a whole bunch of them and sew them together into a really funky blanket. I am gonna add a bunch of decor to it too. I wanted to work on some other projects, but I either can't find or don't have the supplies for them.

Five Months

I am technically a day late, but I wanted to write about this anyway. Yesterday was the day that me and Justin had been together for five months. Which is just shy of half a year, which is a pretty long time. I am so happy with him. I can see us together for many years and months to some for sure. He is very very good to me.
Anyways, a basic recap of what has happened in the last five months in our relationship goes kinda like this: First we met on the Internet. Then we went on out first date. Within the first week I backed my car into his. In the first month we moved in together. By the end of the second month, all my roommates moved out. We had a great Halloween and Thanks Giving together. In December, Justin totaled my car. Money got tight for Christmas. Spent Christmas with my family. We hit a few bumps along the way. This month we found 'our' song.Washing machine died and we replaced it together. So here we are now.
I wouldn't trade a single moment with him for the world. He really is the one for me. I feel safe and secure around him. I trust him extremely too. I don't think he would up and leave me. We have been through a lot in a little amount of time. I don't think I have ever been so close to some one. But I wanted to write about us a little bit.

My Meez

So much has happened today. I had a good day, a bad day, and just a day all together. I feel worn out, happy and depressed all in one. Why does life have to be so up and down? It started out with Justin going to court and my dad went with him. He got the tickets reduces partially, but in the end they all came out $830. We have until the end of the year to pay them. It is just so much, and the car is totaled too. I still owe $8,000 on the car as well. Then we went home and unloaded half the garage to get out the extra washing machine, because my older machine died. That was a hassle. We stored a bunch of Justins crap in the trunk of the Sebring. He needs to sort through it, so we just stuck it in there. I also found some Christmas presents for the kids in there, that I will give them for their birthday. Then Krystal called and invited us over for a pizza and movie night. Which was super awesome. We had a blast over there. I had a lot of fun just joking around with her and Dale. We were watching the Alien and Predator movies. They know all kinds of neat information about the movies. We watched two and a half movies. I think we will be going back soon to watch the rest of the movies they have.

But the other bad news of the day was when we finally picked up the car from the shop. They did some stuff for free, which was awesome. But Justin didn't take very good care of this car and there was a lot wrong with it. The total bill came out to $800. Which just blew me away all together. But it runs pretty nice. My dad still needs to replace the spark plug wires. Magnum did a really awesome job on the car and I would refer them to anyone any day. The bill was high, but any where else I would have had at least over a grand total. So they are pretty awesome. I just don't know how we are going to get out of all this debt. I am going to go over to moms house tomorrow and work on the bills then. I picked up my check from work and it was small. I am just stressed over the whole thing. I don't know how we are going to catch up. :(

Wow, I have gotten so much done in the last two days it is just scary! I worked an eight hour shift yesterday, then straight after work helped my friend Krystal move furniture to my house, my moms house, and to her storage. It was crazy. Oh and we took some to the salvation army! Then I got up today and my house was packed with new stuff. I got a new sofa, dinning table with two chairs, a book shelf, a desk, a dresser, and a entertainment center. I moved my queen frame from the living room to the porch along with the twin bed and frame, and the treadmill and the new stuff for sale. I got everything put in their places. I am still in process of putting everything away, but the furniture is all in place. I have made the second bedroom into a huge closet like area, with my craft stuff in there too. I am still organizing, but it is coming along great!
So things are going well here. Justin has court in a few days for the car accident appeal.

There has been so much yet so little going on here really. I rearranged the bedroom to make it better for when Coco has her puppies in a few weeks. She is huge so I assume at least three. She is handling it very well, except, she does whine more now. I love her though.
I have come to realize I do not like Justin when he is tired. He gets very grumpy. Not that he really does anything, but just his attitude. Which usually makes me think he is mad at me. So first I am hurt, and then kinda sad. Then after a while I end up getting mad at him being a grouch. Now that he has left for work, I just feel bad that he has to work tonight, when he is so sleepy. I am really proud of him. We talked to the people at TPI and we are both being considered for their next round of interviews. I am very excited about that.
I got the dishes caught up, and a decent about of house work done, with the exception of laundry. We still have no washing machine. Which is starting to look bad, because when I cleaned out the bedroom I found a bunch of laundry that had been stashed at the end of the bed. So along with regular laundry there is extra laundry.
It has been weird for me to have two days off in a row, but I go back to work tomorrow, and then not another day off for five days straight. I don't mind really. If I don't go to work, I get some serious cabin fever going on because of all the snow. The car won't start right now because of it being below zero or just too close. Plus Magnum hasn't called about getting the parts in for the car yet. When they call though I need to get it up there and hopefully this problem will go away. If it weren't for the car trouble it has caused me, I honestly wouldn't mind winter. It is a part of life and can be very beautiful. But I needed to do things, like go over to my moms to balance my check book, and take swap stuff to the post office. I really miss doing lots of swaps. I loved getting the mail.
Every year for the past four years I think, I have just decided I wanted one big thing for my birthday. Two different years it was a sewing machine, one year was my digital camera, and last year was my laptop. I have decided what I want this year and it is a weird request for sure. I want these clothing racks that are commercial grade Z racks. They use them at goodwill and I looked them up on amazon.com and found out how much they cost. There are two different ones and I need two of each I think. Maybe more, but that would be an awesome start. They run roughly at $80 each with shipping. There are some sellers on ebay that have some that are about $20 to $30 cheaper, but we all know ebay changes day to day. But these racks are on wheels, and are meant to carry very heavy loads. I have killed every single clothing rack walmart carries. I have even bought their super heavy duty ones, and I have put them in their grave. I just own so much clothes and there is so much I want to hang up. It is the best storage method so I can get to everything I need to. Plus if I get these racks, I can push one aside while I look through another. Almost using them like you would turn the pages of a book. But I will have to wait and see how we are sitting in June. That is when I plan to refinance the house and hopefully start the remodel on the basement.

Photo Blog #4 Things I have made

The first two pictures are of a picture I drew for my friend Mike at work. He is a pretty nice guy, and I put together a few ideas and made this. He really liked it.
Then the second set of pictures are cute little snow men ornaments I made for Swap Bot. I had to make ten of them, and I had sewed on buttons for each one, they have a rhinestone nose, seed bead eyes, and just used a sharpie to make the dots for the mouths. I thought that they came out well!

Photo Blog #3 Kitty Bath Torture

These pictures are of when Sam decided that Coco needed a bath major bad, and that she needed some one to clean her face for her. When ever Coco would try to get away Sam would claw and bite her. It was hilarious. Sam is only half the size of Coco!

Photo Blog #2 Car Wreck

Here are the photos of the Sebring after we got it home. A snow plow can fuck up your car pretty bad if it really wants to. So for future reference, don't make one mad. Neither of them were going very fast. Oh and by the way, Justin was nice enough to wreck this one, not me, so thanks Justin!

Photo Blog

I finally put all the pictures from my camera onto my computer, and there are 50 of them! SO I am going to do a couple of photo blogs! I hope every one enjoys the picture update!

These pictures are of the lamp I bought and then super decorated for my friend Krystals birthday in November. I thought it turned out really well!

Las Vegas!

Well, my mom has put the interesting idea out there about Justin and I getting married in Las Vegas, and then coming back here to have the reception. I thought it would be neat. I did some yahoo searches, and found a lot of different places. I am really considering a few places that have some nice packages. I really want a place that is very pretty, and then has a good picture package. I think it would be a fun way to have a hassle free ceremony and then have a night on the town. Afterwards we could all come home, relax a bit, and then have a big reception, with all our family and friends. They only people going to Vegas would be Justin and I, as well as my mom and dad. Right now though it is a thought. I think it would be neat, but we aren't getting married until 2010. So we have plenty of time to think about it and consider what we want to do anyway. I am just very excited about it.

Well, I am pissy at the government!
They have decided to pass a law that requires all businesses to test all clothing and products for under the age of twelve for toxic lead and phthalates. Sounds good right? Well, put it this way, imagine all the thrift stores around the world, having to test every single product that comes in. It is not cheap testing either! Also any untested products are deemed hazardous and must be sent to a landfill. When I worked for GoodWill, I alone in a 4 to 6 hour shift would easily put out over 2,000 pieces of clothes and tons of toys, and at least a third of those were children's! Most small businesses will be put out of business, because they can't afford the testing, and other larger companies that sell second hand will have to raise prices. So were low income families would usually buy their children's clothing those resources will be gone!
So, here are some articles you can check out about this!
http://charlottesmartypants.blogspot.com/2009/01/new-safety-rules-for-childrens-clothes.html
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http://www.cheekyandswank.com/?p=1978
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http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.jsp?articleId=281474977554831&grpId=3659174697248541&nav=Groupspace

Wow, I haven't written in a week. Everything has been just just kinda rolling after one another here. The days are blurring together for me really. My mom got her new job at the radio station, and now she is cleaning her house like crazy to find all her business clothes. She has out grown a lot of them because she has gained weight. It isn't really obvious until she tries to squeeze into a size 6. Then it's like, wow you did. Other then that she looks awesome and I think will do really well with this job. It just pisses me off that they are handing this job to her on a platter, and she won't get them to hire me at all. I need a second job pretty badly too. I am inches away from applying at like a damn McDonalds or something. Which would make me utterly miserable. We are getting by OK right now money wise, but we are racking major car repair bills and such because we have to fix up Justin's car. Things are just stressful to me. Like I realized that I have to stay in this house longer. I am going to have to refinance it so I can keep it longer. Because if I don't then I have no place to put the two cars I owe money on, plus the van. So, I am going to get extra money to pay off debt and remodel the house. I want the basement completely finished off so I can put a large master bedroom and walk in closet down there. I have Mike coming over tomorrow to see about putting in the laundry shoot. Then he is also going to give me his opinion on getting the basement redone. He has redone his basement as well.

But basically that is all that is going on with me, besides the dumb cat(Sam) peed on the bed while we were watching One Piece on the computer. I have no idea what the problem is with my animals.

Cancer Research

I have a friend who sent me the link to this article on myyearbook.com. I thought it was really amazing, I raise money every day on myyearbook to go toward cancer research. It runs strong in my family and I am very supportive of the cause. Here is a excerpt from the article itself and I will leave a link to it at the bottom.
WEDNESDAY, Dec. 31 (HealthDay News) -- More than three-quarters of laboratory leukemia cells exposed to an extract from grape seeds died within 24 hours, effectively killing themselves while leaving other cells unharmed, a new study shows.
University of Kentucky researchers say they found that the extract activates JNK, a protein that regulates the cell-signaling pathway the leads to cell death, or apoptosis.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/hsn/20090101/hl_hsn/grapeseedextractkillsleukemiacellsinlab

Happy New Year

Now that 2008 has past there are so many things that the future holds for everyone, a new beginning. For new years Justin and I kept it nice and quiet and stayed home and watched a movie. We watched the chronicles of narnia prince caspian. It was wonderful. It has this awesome ending song and I wanted to share the lyrics here.
Regina Spektor-The Call
lyrics:~
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder'
Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because every thing's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye