Friday, December 28, 2007

Well, Michael may be coming sooner then I thought due to issues with his family. He is making me a little nervous, but I still have faith in him! I love him so much! Here are some new pictures I took just today!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Pictures from North Dakota

I have all these wonderful pictures from the trip. My camera needs repaired.
Micheal looks sooo cute with glasses.
We had a wonderful time hiking out in the bad lands.
There was a lot to see, North Dakota is beautiful.
The river was frozen.
I love being with him, we always have fun.
just a little too close
Me sitting on a rock
I thought black and white would be pretty.
I loved being close to Michael all the time.

You won't Believe This

Well it has surely been a while since I have written. The first week I did not write was because of so much work. We wrapped up our holiday parties then. Then this previous week was because I wasn't home! Yes, I was gone, out of state! It is probably the most adventurous and daring thing I have ever done in my life. I found out the Sunday before last that I only worked one day last week. I have been talking to Michael for a long time, both on the phone and online. I was really beginning to feel a very intense connection towards him. So I knew if I was to ever have the opportunity to meet him that this was my chance. SO I called him up on Sunday(16Th) and we made arrangements with him and his family for me to come and visit him. I left the very next day by greyhound bus and arrived Tuesday(18Th) morning around 4 am. Yes it was very spur of the moment and very scary and exciting. I rode the whole way there wondering if he would be some one besides the person I knew on the phone and the person I had grown close to in emails. We had met on The entire ride there I could not believe that I was doing such a crazy thing. But then in the back of my mind I thought it could be love. He was everything I was looking for in a guy(including hot!). When I finally did arrive there, he was at the bus stop waiting for me. We hugged and had our first kiss right then and there. It wasn't exactly perfect, because it was about 15 degrees in North Dakota at the time!
He took me back to his house and showed me his room where I would stay while he slept in the family room. I put down my stuff and got comfortable. We laid on his bed and talked for a long time, but at some point we fell asleep. He had to work that day, but I was so tired from the trip that I slept most of the time he was at work.
Most of my trip after that blurs together, because there were so many happy moments. We went hiking and went shopping together. I got to meet some of his friends and some of his family. Every second we spent together I felt closer and closer to him. I have to say now, and I have not said this in a long long time, but I am now truly in Love with Michael. He is everything I have ever wanted. Because he knows what it is like to go through what I have been through. He is also bi-polar like me and is on medications for that as well as depression. We have been through such similar things and see things a lot a like. We were born only a year and 5 days apart. Making us both Gemini's. Which is really unique in itself. But he is truly everything I could ask for in a guy. He is tall, thin, handsome, funny, smart, and caring. He played football in high school and was in drama and chorus. He sings and that is soooo sexy. He calls me princess and treats me like one too. He is always telling me how much he loves me. I could not ask for more!
Michael works at Wal-Mart right now. We want to be together as soon as we can and he is moving here in Jan. The last week of Jan. I will be going up to him and driving with him on the way back. I am very excited. I am going to be taking a second job at prairie meadows as a cocktail waitress. The extra money would be so wonderful.
I really missed my family and the puppies while I was gone. I got stuck up in Minneapolis Minnesota on my way back and Butch drove all the way up there to get me so I could be home for Christmas. I had a very very wonderful Christmas with my family.

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Wow, I don't know what is with me and not blogging as much as I used to. But I am gonna write a bit now before I go ad pick up Mickey and Holden from school. My mom and I are talking again and that is awesome. I was over at her house for a long time last night even. Garth's fur is growing back very nicely. It looks very cute now with his cut. I took Garth to the vet finally because of his fleas. I was very worried. But they gave me this awesome flea medicine and he also got his first shots. He is doing so much better now. I am so proud of him. He is much more active now that he isn't itching all the time too. Koty spent the night last night. Him and Jeremy rented a movie and two video games from family video. Then he stayed up all night and worked on the computer. He is going to definitely be some thing. he completely fixed the computer. We even have desk top icons now!! I am so happy. I think he killed my favorites. But hey, with it now running fast and everything it is kinda worth it.
I get my first check from Prairie Meadows on Friday! I am very excited. It should be pretty good. I only work two days this week, but I might get called in. When Jeremy gets home today I am going to help him fill out his application for Prairie Meadows, because he is taking a year off before he goes to college. He needs a decent paying job. Plus I think he is beginning not to like McDonalds anymore.
I think Koty is coming back over later to watch the movie with us. He went home this morning while I was on the phone to mom. She is going out to Prairie Meadows now, because she went and tried on her uniform and it was all messed up. So she is hoping they can fix it before Friday, because that is her first day. She had her orientation Monday and Tuesday. I am excited for her. This is the first real job she will have had for years! She has been doing Passion Parties, but you work for yourself. Then before that she did mystery shops and stuff like that. The last job I remember her having is when she worked out at Hansen Directory. Which now the Newton Clinic as bought out and it is a physical rehab center for sports injuries. A lot has changed since I was a kid. Like the mall is almost completely gone now, because they are tearing it all down for the new Hy-Vee parking lot. But I guess life is change.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Bad Weather

This is the first real bad weather we have had this year. I guess we are pretty lucky in that aspect. I couldn't get to work today because of the roads being iced over. I almost had a accident when I took Garth tot he vet earlier this morning. It was pretty scary, the car almost completly spun around when I went to turn into the vet. Luckily, I am only going like 20 and the car behind me was a ways off. So I got Garth his first shots and other stuff. He is a much happier camper now. But I couldn't believe how well he handled everything!! They stuck a thermomerter up his butt! He didn't even whine. Then when they gave him his shots, he didn't cry then either. Oh and the doctor held him up and squeezed his little boy puppy gentital and not a fuss was made. So he is my tough little baby! I would have whined and cried through the whole thing. When I bring himin next time I need to take Coco with me, because she needs her second shots.
I have to get everything done with the bills today. I have been putting it off forever. But it needs to be done. My back is so sore from work last night. We set up for a party of 500! Then we served them everything and took plates and cups. We had tons of cleaning to do. After we were done with the party we ahd to clean out the room and house keeping had to come in and clean, so we could divide up the room and set up for two more parties the next day! We did get out at mid-night. But these 12 hour shifts are killing me! Having to lift up all the chairs was the part that really killed my back in it all. Then two people got sent home because they ahd bad attitudes. But I am meeting a lot of new people and I work with a lot of nice people. There are only two I don't care to work with too closely. Thats only because I like to do a good job the first time and get things done right as well. I hate when people slack or half ass it. But all in all I really do like my job, it is just really hard!!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Today has been fairly uneventful. I watched a movie with Jeremy and got some laundry folded. I am actually holding Garth right now instead of Coco. She is laying down on the heater vent. I am not sure why, since it is not running. But my poor little Garth, we shaved his furr off his back to help him get rid of his fleas and it hasn't helped too much. I love him to death. I am just so glad he is such a good puppy. He hasn't put up a fight or anything. He is just so cuddly in his own way. Like he only wants your attention when he wants it. He has such a sweet gentle nature. I am so glad I got him. I don't know what I would do without my babies.
Chris went into work early. He does that a lot. I wish he would get a better paying job. Because there are going to be a lot of time where he is going to have to walk home in the cold because me and Jeremy are working. Not as much cleaning as I wanted got done today, but thats ok, it never does. But we did get the hallway cleaned and blocked off from the puppies. We have this very simple carpet layed down in the bathroom, and they have been tearing it out. It doesn't really matter because it is crappy carpet and we are going to remodel. But it does make one heck of a mess. Plus they tend to think it is a good idea to run off with my underwear. So it is best they are only in there at night when it is bed time.
We got some laundry done today which is good, because I like to have a lot of different things to chose from. I am so one of those people that has like their favorite pair of underwear and favorite pair of jeans. But then I love clothes, so yeah.

First Day of Work

I had Chris take these pictures of me on my first day of work! I really like the uniform, but I think I look like a guy.


I actually took a risk and put an add on craigslist. I am hoping to find some one special. I have gotten a few replies and they have all been pretty great so far. There is one in particular I am interested in. I can't wait to see what I hear back tomorrow. I have been hanging out with Brandon a lot more. It has been really nice.
Chris had to go into work early tonight. So he will have plenty of hours on his check. Jeremy went and got his check cashed today. So I need to go and put the rest into the house account and make the house payment. Tomorrow is my last day off before I work a hard streak. I am a little nervous. I should be good the first night, but the nights after that should be interesting. I have never worked 12 hour shifts before. But the pay is really good, and I like what I do.
I am still having major trouble with Garths Fleas. I need to take some time tomorrow and see if I can find some natural home remedies for them. We even shaved off his fur. Poor little guy has the worst of luck really. But him and Coco have become really good friends, and play a lot. I love seeing them run around together. Now Coco sleeps in bed with me and Garth sleeps beside my bed at night. They are my babies.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

First Day of Work

This is me on my first day of offical work!!! The first day I worked was on Saturday the 24th!!

Friday, November 23, 2007


On the biggest shopping day of the year, I but jewelry. I am going to put the pictures of my new stuff on here!
I really love jewelry and have a huge collection.
SO if you ever need a gift idea for me, you can never go wrong here!

Thursday, November 22, 2007


These pictures were taken on different days. The hand at the top is the big gash Zack put in my hand. The bruises on the other side wouldn't photograph, but they were the size of two fifty cent peices. The other pic's are of Brandon playing with Coco, Zoe, and Jeremy trying to aviod the camera. Oh and I had to make a pic of me looking mean, so I could win a photo battle on my year book,lol.
I learn something new every day. Like today I learned it takes eight 2 liter bottles of water to fill up the back of a toilet to flush. Also I have a new appreciation of indoor plumbing. But it seems my house is forcing relaxation upon me. Because without water, we can't do laundry or wash dishes, so it does limit my amount of cleaning I can do.
Zoe is in heat. Which has been a interesting experience so far. She follows Jeremy around like he carrying catnip. Plus she is eating more then usual, which is funny because she will meow at us really loud until we feed her. Then at night she uses what I assume is her sexy kitty voice and meows half the night away. I feel bad for her. If it weren't the middle of winter, and we weren't so busy, I would see about finding her a boyfriend. I wouldn't mind the pitter-patter of kitten feet. But I think we will wait until next time.
I have been playing around on a lot. I really like the site, it is really fun. Plus I am meeting a lot of new people and that's always cool. I am kinda hoping I meet a guy on there. I have met a few, but nothing really serious yet. I just want some one special to spend my time with.
I have some pictures of the house and some other ones I think I will put up in a separate post. I am still not talking to my mom. So now our Thanks Giving sucks. But it never has gone well before, why should it go well now? Mom hates Chris again, because he stood up for himself. I had Jeremy ask her for help with the plumbing, since he broke it, and she even got nasty with him. So I hope she is happy. Jeremy wants us to make-up. But I don't see that happening. I am still upset with her, because every time I get up set she basically says I am crazy. I hate that so much. I have a right to have feelings. She thinks I should just not be upset over things.
Chris might be getting a car. Which I think is great. He is working out some sort of deal with his boss to buy a car that was theirs. He is getting it relatively cheap too. So I am impressed. Jeremy has been helping me clean this morning, which has been really nice. We got a lot done. I haven't been feeling well. I don't know what is wrong with me, because none of my symptoms are consistent. I have a itching stuffy nose and sneezing, but not all the time. Like now I am fine, but 15 min. ago I was sneezing all over the place. And like right now I feel so drained and just want to sleep and last night I got well over 8 hours of sleep. So I don't know what is going on with my body.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

First Snow

I have not blogged in a while. I keep intending to but, I have been really busy. Yesterday and the day before were my first two days of work. The orientation went very well. I wasn't too bored and actually had some fun. I am now TIPS certified. Our water went out here at the house, because Jeremy broke a valve. It really wasn't his fault. He just set a box on a pipe that was about to die anyway. When Chris removed it he told me that it was corroded. Things are going pretty well now. Today is my day off. I don't work again until Saturday. I am excited about it. I am not sure when I get off though. Because it says I work from 2pm to close. Well if you know Prairie Meadows, you would know that it is open 24 hours a day. I am going to be working part time, but as soon as a full time position opens up I am going to try to go after it for sure. I don't get any benefits or anything until I am full time. Me and Mom still aren't getting along. It really bums me out. She promised that her and Butch would help out with all these repairs with the house and they just let me down again. Chris is starting to pull through for me though. He has some one lined up to do the re-wiring. Plus we are going to be working on water proofing the basement soon. I am really excited about that.
Oh and the most exciting thing that has happened all day is today was first snow!! And oh boy is it snowing. It has been snowing for like the past couple of hours, and I think we are coming up on 6 inches! If it keeps coming at this rate, then we may have a foot or more! At first it was kind of light,, and then the big fluffy flakes started coming down. It is sticking to everything but the road. There it just turns kinda mushy.
Zoe my cat has been out and about a lot more lately. I like having her around. It is like a sign of leisure and comfort. She is always resting some where. Her usual spot is on the small table in the middle of the room. Right now she is laying on my sewing table, right in front of the window. There must be something special about the spot because she isn't getting any warmth, and no sun really. It is still light out, but it is usually dark around five now. Chris told me the other night that it was very weird to him for it to be so dark so early.
The puppies have been good. Garth is getting more and more social. He will come and curl up with you now while you are watching TV. But don't let Coco see, because then she will have to be on your lap too. Then the fighting will ensue. They are funny yo watch play. I love them to death. I was worried for a while that I was allergic to Garth, because it seemed like when I was around him my sinuses would act up. But now I realize it is just the season and I have try to keep things more clean inside. I have to vacuum a lot more because the dander can get to me. I made sure to pick up some anti-histamines at the store, so when I do get all stuffed up I have some thing I can take. Plus Jeremy has been having the same issue.
Chris has been doing okay health wise, with he exception of his fatigue. His job is really straining him because he is not on a regular work schedule. So I don't know how to help him. He says he wants another job, but wants to keep this job. Which I understand he is good at it, plus it is very secure. They need him and trust him there. But he needs to make more money. He said that he would wait on getting his own car so he could get a computer for his college. But I think he is going to regret that choice once he has to walk home from work in the snow. I don't know what to do though. I am going to have to wait and see what my pay checks are going to look like first.
Speaking of pay, I am hoping that I do get a lot of hours, because I want to be able to get Chris and Jeremy good Christmas gifts. I want this Christmas to be really special. Since it is the first one in our new home. Plus the three of us will be here all together. Oh and I don't know if I put this on here yet, but Jeremy has found out when he starts college. I can't remember the exact date, but it is in the beginning of Feb. SO I am really excited for him. I am so proud of him too, all his hard work. He is getting straight A's. Plus he has lost a lot of weight. He just really amazes me. That's why he totally deserves a wonderfully awesome Christmas gift.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Okay, I know I have not written in a while. But I am writing now. Zack was evicted due to his behavior and that was bad. He got all confrontational and we had to call the cops on him and his day because they wouldn't leave the property. There was a fight between him and Chris and I got hurt. My wrist is badly bruised and I have a big cut on my thumb. He is to never come back here again. He lied and was rude and just terrible. He can't be trusted at all. He really showed his true colors.
But anyways, moving on. This week has been interesting. I went and took my physical for Prairie Meadows and I am in!!! I start my orientation on Monday! I am worried about mom because they said she was over qualified for the cocktail waitress, so they won't hire her. So she is trying to get on for the cage cashiering. She really needs this job. We just found out my dad has a really bad heart condition. Basically if his heart is under too much stress it could just stop beating and he could die. So it has been really hard for all of us to deal with this.
I quit my job at GoodWill on the spot. I worked a 8 hour Saturday shift and then I was reprimanded later on because I refused to let a lady use the dressing rooms. I was facing a possible 5 day suspension, so I told her that it was quite unreasonable and left. She should have fun covering my shifts, because I worked all this week. But that wasn't the only reason. She also basically said that she wouldn't work around my new jobs hours and was going to fire me anyway. SO I don't know what will happen there, because when I told my mom she made me come forward with all the sexual harassment that I have been receiving from my managers husband. I had kept quiet all this time because I never wanted to cause a conflict were I worked. I loved my job at GoodWill. It really does bum me out that I can't work there anymore.
I have this new found allergy to dog dander, so I have been working on cleaning the house. Plus we are rehoming Cy and thats going to be majorly important to that. He sheds a lot, plus every night he gets worse and worse and tears up stuff, so we know he needs some place new where he can be happy.
I think I have really updated on everything. Oh I have been doing puzzles and gluing them down, they are coming out well. I am going to hang some around the house today.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

I guess I had a pretty good day. I worked form 11:30 to 5:30. I hung bedding mostly. I was able to hang over $400 worth of bedding!! So I am pretty happy with myself. I hope this impresses my manager, but it probably won't. I went over to my moms after work. She came into GoodWill today. She got a bunch of clothes for the kids and some for Koty and stuff. She went and bought Christmas presents for the kids today. I am going shopping with her tomorrow. I have to get the check book balanced. I have been putting it off. I got three pairs of pants hemmed up for Mickey last night, but forgot to take them to her house. So I am going to take them over there tomorrow. I have to be at moms at 9am. She has some doctor appointments she has to go to in the morning. Then we are heading out to DesMoines together. Chris fell down the stairs last night. I was really worried about him. I think he is going to be okay though. I think he might have broke his wrist. But he says it is ok. He said he should be abck to normal tomorrow. I think he should just rest until it is entirely better. He played my pokemon game on the DS. Which is so much easier because of the pen pad.I got some puzzles today and I am going to start one soon.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Well today has been a pretty awesome day off. Me and Chris went and deposited our checks. I made the car payment. I nearly forgot last time!! But all is good now. We went and ate at the A&W Long John Silvers place. It is soooo good there, but can be pricey. But it is worth what you pay, because their food is good and not all greasy. We went and looked around Pappys Antique Mall. Then we went to the appliance store right next to it. We found a awesome fridge there. We are going to make payments on it. Which isn't bad because we are establishing our credit that way too. Plus it is perfect for the house. It is really cute, and neat looking. Plus we are probably going to go back and get a deep freeze for in the basement. They have one there that is the perfect size and for brand new, a awesome price. The brand new fridge all together with the installation included is just less then $500. SO I am pretty happy. I think we will be getting a lot more of our appliances there.

Oh and then Chris took me home so I could rest because I am not feeling very good because it is that time of the month. Every now and then I feel sick then. Hopefully I feel better later on. Oh and we stopped at McDonald's and rented Spider man 3. It was pretty awesome. There was a lot of emotion and evil in it! I was pretty amazed at the action. I really liked it.

Then Chris went to WalMart after he dropped me off. I was resting when he came home. He went and bought me a new keyboard. He is so wonderful. I really needed one because Jeremy's old one was really nasty and a lot of the keys stuck funny and it was hard to type on. I am trying to increase my speed at typing. So have a nice keyboard really helps. Overall I have had a great day off.

We have been having some serious issues with Cy. He has been tearing into food, and going to the bathroom in the house. At first we thought it was just an issue with being in a new place. But now it is getting worse and worse. Plus with me taking a second job, I can't be here to clean it up and have others clean it up. No one can manage to clean up stuff unless I am here to tell them. I know several people have been down stairs to do laundry and no one folds the clean, so it gets washed over and over again. Then Cy has been pooping down there and no one cleans it up, even though I know they see it.
Okay, I saved the top to a draft and I am writing again later. This evening was not as nice as the earlier part of the day. I had to get on Zack and Jeremy's ass to clean up and it all went down. We all ended up fighting. I decided that Zack needed to get out and told him I would call the cops on him if he didn't leave. My brother told my mom and she came down and resolved everything for us. So now we are going to have a chore chart thing. I have to work with it with my mom tomorrow. I am still very pissed at Zack. I also found out tonight that Jeremy will be living at home while he goes to college. His college isn't as far away as I thought. I am actually happy about it. Although I did want him to leave with Zack earlier. So I am hoping now things will get better.

Pretty Good Day

Today has beena long and interesting day overall. I had my interview and had to watch Mickey before and some after. I picked up Holden from school too. Jeremy went with me. It was nice to have his company. My interview went AWESOME!!! I got the job as a banquet server. I am really excited about starting there. I got Coco and Garth many different types of flea protection. I think I put too much stuff on Garth because he started acting sick just a little while ago. I am holding him now and typing one handed. So it is slow going. But I love to blog. Coco is sleeping on my lap too. We watched the movie The Invisible. OMG it was really good. I cried. Like a lot. I really liked the movie though. Jeremy recommended it for us to watch. He has really good taste in movies. Chris made tacos for dinner, but Zoe ate the leftovers while we were watching the movie. She was very stealth. My mom is working at getting on at Prairie Meadows too. She was talking to them today. I picked up my paycheck from GoodWill today too. Chris gets paid tomorrow. So we will be doing much better really soon. I bought food today. We really needed it. I need to re-apply all of us for food stamps. We need it really bad. There is never really enough to eat around here. Plus it doesn't help we can't keep any freezer food because we are still using a tiny bar fridge. Eh, but I am off to bed now.

Thursday, November 08, 2007


I am so happy it doesn't make sense. But I don't have time to write I need sleep for my interview! SO TTYL!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

ummm thoughts

Well, I am here to write. But I am starting to maybe wonder if my blogs are boring. I don't know. I don't have a very interesting life. Jeremy had a friend over yesterday who brought his Wii. It was kinda cool. I got off work at seven last night. So I bought some stuff. I got this Proactive acne stuff. I thought it would be a good idea to use it, but I probably won't. I am like that. It is kinda cold in the house this morning, but it doesn't really bother me. I want to get dressed, but I know I need to wash my hair, and the whole idea of getting wet is just not appealing. SO I am sitting here putting it off. I need to buy groceries, but we really don't have the money to. There isn't much in the house. There is food, but only like odds and ends things you can make with meals. If I was dressed I could go over to my moms and eat. I am such a mooch, lol. But she loves me. Me and her talk about everything. I am supposed to start my period today, and I think that is why I feel so blah. I got that stuff last night and it is still on the table in bags. Which I am usually excited and want to show everyone what I got. But they are still there. Chris is in bed sleeping, because he got off work this morning. He went in early last night too. He starts his college in Jan. I am so proud of him. Speaking of proud, I am extremely proud of Jeremy. He has lost so much weight. It shows too. He can wear some of Zacks clothes. I am so proud of him. He eats right and goes for walks. He doesn't see the difference, but everyone has been giving him compliments.

Monday, November 05, 2007


I have been super busy today. I sorted some of my cards, then I sewed a few pairs of Mickeys pants. Zack fixed me some tator tots before he went to work. I went over to my moms and just got back. I got a call earlier and I have a interview at Prairie Meadows!! I am so excited! It would be so awesome if I could get a job out there.
I don't whats wrong with me, because I have been missing Todd. It is just that he was so nice, sweet, and funny. I liked him a lot. I just can't believe the way he acted. I would never do that to someone.........
But anyways, I need to get a few more things done defore I go to work.

Sunday, November 04, 2007

The Worst Day Ever

The title of this post says it all. I wanted to get on here and rant and rave about how bad my day was yester day. Because it was really bad. I had a bad day at work, and was in a lot of physical pain. Then I was so excited to see Todd, and we get in a fight on the way to DesMoines and he basically tells me what a worhtless piece of shit I am. Then leaves me at a gas station. Which I sat on the ground in the cold and cried for an hour. Because he made me feel like I was the one who was screwed up. But this morning I realized, I have life so much better then him. I got three awesome guys in my life who love me, and were completely there for me last night. I have great parents, and a great life all together. I don't need that kind of person, who feels they have a right to hurt others.
Mom got me up at eight this morning and we took the kids to church. We went to Wal-Mart and got Mickey some of her Christmas presents. Mom had some coupons for toys. Money is really tight, so she if trying to find ways to get them good presents.
My brother, Koty, and his friend spent the night last night. They were all playing Halo with Jeremy and Zack. I am glad they all get along. Koty's birthday is in a few days.
I am going to work in hemming Mickey's pants now.

Friday, November 02, 2007

Good Morning

Well, last night at work sucked. But I am feeling pretty good this morning. SO it is all good. Todd sent me some of the pictures from Tuesday, so I am very happy about that. I am about to smack Garth, because he heard Cy outside barking and is walking around going Arf! Arf! He doesn't even fulling bark, it more like a weird puppy sneeze. I have to run to WalMart today and get puppy wormer. Then I need to pack my bag for this weekend. I am very excited about everything we have planned.
I don't know if I could ever smack Garth, because he looks like such a cuddly teddy bear. He is just so cute. When he touches you with his paws, he is just so gentle. He is still walking around barking at nothing in particular. If Coco wasn't such a big Mommas girl then I could hold then both on my lap. But Coco is my big baby, she has to sleep with me and everything. But thats ok, I love her. She just looks at me with those big brown/green eyes and I just want to give her anything she wants.
I need to go over to mom's house today too, because I have some new clothes for Mickey, she needed long sleeve shirts. I still really need to find my pedal for my sewing machine. I have like a dozen pairs of her pants here to hem, and she needs them. She doesn't have a lot that fits right because she is so short and round, lol.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007


Today was pretty good. I worked from 4 to 9:30. I was on the floor all day, but thats ok, because I busted ass. I also bought some christmas ornaments. I am so excited about Christmas. I have decided to skip over thanks giving decor completely and go straight on into christmas. I got a email from my friend Linda today. I had not spoke to her in over a week. I had not even realized it!( Sorry Linda!) But I got really excited about meeting Todd that I kinda just focused on getting the house clean and was trying to potty train the dogs. This weekend will be so much fun, because after I get off work on Saturday, it is me and Todd the rest of the weekend! My detail billing thing is going good. I put int he new transactions for today. I got Mickey some cute PJ's for Christmas. I already got them some Christmas presents and birthday presents. Zoe is sitting out here giving the dogs the evil eye. But she does play with Coco though. Chris took Garth to work with him. I think it is better for Garth, because he has a hernia and it can be damaged by Coco playing too rough with him. Plus he can't sleep in bed with me, because he peed on me and Chris(separate occasions). But anyway, I am heading off to bed soon, I got to check my email and talked to Todd on the phone, so I am a happy camper!

Money and Bills

I think about the weirdest things before I go to sleep at night. I was thinking about how difficult it has been lately for me to keep track of the bills and such through the move. I have a hard time remembering if I paid it or if I just paid some of it. So I decided I was going to keep a detailed report in a not book. I takes a lot to write it all out. Because I am also writing out side notes for every transaction, describing what and why. This way if I look back in a months time I can figure out how much I spent when and where. I think I am getting too loose with the money and I need to tighten up a bit with it. I want to keep more detailed track of what I do, even cash and such. This way I have a better idea of were the money is flowing. If I can get that I can figure out ways to save more money. Which will be good, because with me dating Todd I have a feeling I will be spending a lot more gas money, so I can see him. I could only go back about 6 days when I started the notebook this morning. Before that I really don't remember all the details of the transactions.
Mom is having me and Koty go in and resign our advertiser routes. Mom told me that Koty and Jeremy are tired of doing them. Which is fine with me. So I have to go do that in a just a little bit. I also have to stop by the bank and deposit my GoodWill pay check. I got paid late. But it is ok, it is just nice to have a regular paycheck again. Mom is trying to get on at Prairie Meadows with Butch. If she gets on there, when my birthday rolls around they are going to try to get me hired on there too. Which would be really awesome because they pay like $10 starting for a lot of the positions. Plus they awesome benefits and right now I have none.
I had this nightmare last night that I got in a fight with my manager at GoodWill and like clocked out and left in the middle of my shift. And I was at home freaking out and my heart was racing and I kept saying I need to get back to work right now, but I kept finding ways to stall going back. So I don't know whats up with that.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Happy Halloween!

Me, Mom, Mickey, Holden, and Todd all went trick or treating together. It was a lot of fun. We went walking done the streets in me and moms neighborhoods. The kids did pretty well. We went to the church after that. They had whats called Trunk-or-Treat. People sit in the parking lots with their trunks open and the kids trick or treat there. Then we went to the hospital. By the time we all got there, we got through pretty quick. So it wasn't too bad, besides it was hot. Then we swung back by the church again. Finally we went and ate at McDonalds. They were having .59 cent cheeseburgers today. Mom bought us all dinner. Which was really nice of her. We went back to moms and unloaded. I had Todd bring me home, and I showed him around my house some. It is wild because I own so much stuff. But he has to work tomorrow, so we said our goodbyes. I have to say I had a overall Awesome day.

Wonderful Date

I had a absolutly wonderful date with Todd. I had so much fun. We went to lake Red Rock. It was a spur of the moment idea. I was a little nervous at first but that wore off very quickly. I feel so comfortable around him. We both took some nice pictures. I put some of the pictures I really liked up here. Most are of the view, but one is of the little hike we went on. I saw a lot of beautiful views and we talked a lot. It was so nice and refreshing. He is so easy to talk to and funny too. We went down by the waters edge, and there was a lot of drift wood. The rocks were worn down and it was just neat. The wind was just right, and it just felt so nice. I wore flat shoes, so I wasn't going to go climbing around. But he totally amazed me when he just climbed down the edge and was taking pictures of everything. It was just a wonderful unqiue date. I see him again and sunday. I can't wait.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Fluffy Vs Garth

Fluffy Destoryer of Worlds

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Meet Garth!

I want everyone to meet my new puppy Garth! He is a Japenese Chin and Chihuahua mix. He only weighs 1lb 5 ounces. He is so tiny!! Coco likes him, but he is so much smaller then her. Coco is now up to 3 pounds!! What a big girl.
I got most of my cleaning done today. The house looks freaking awesome!Even Zack is impressed. I vacuumed and got all the extra boxes stored away. I still can't find my pedal for my sewing machine. I might have to hang up my curtains un-hemmed. Plus I have to get my sisters pants all hemmed up. Lots to do.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

New Items for Sale
I have updated my new site and it has new items up for sale! I still in the process of moving and cleaning, so not a lot of new items. But I hope everyone enjoys! In the future I may have lots of childrens clothing. I have been helping my little sister sort out her clothes and I think my mother would give them to me if I asked, or basically consigned them for her. We got a lot done today at home. It looks much cleaner. I was going to upload some pictures on here, but it is not very happy with me, so you can just check out my link above.

Being Amazed

I had some thoughts yesterday and I forgot to write about them. I hear a lot of bad things in the media about how our world is filled with hate and war. How things are so bad. I worked for seven hours straight on a register at GoodWill. I saw so many smiles. I had so many thank you's. I had a customer ask to use the phone, and before I could even explain that we couldn't make long distance phone calls, I had another customer come over and volunteer her cell phone. She realize that her phone wasn't on her, and went out of her way to go out to her car and get it. Just so that lady could call a relative. I thought that was a wonderful thing. There are so many good people in this world.
I guess this is just a moment to be thankful.
Mickey is watering coco. She is so sweet. I am lucky to have such a nice little sister. Holden is here playing one of our game boys. Zack is sitting in the living room watching full metal alchemist. It is the final episode which is really sad.
But I guess I am going to get my butt off here. I need to brush my hair and get to cleaning.

Weekend Finally

I am so glad it is finally the weekend. I am so happy to be off work. I have tons of cleaning to do, but I can't wait to get it done. I have Mickey and Holden for the night. Mickey has some sores from sweating. So she had to soak in the tub. Mom still doesn't have a tub, just a shower. Mickey is on the floor and Holden fell alseep in the chair. I like having them here, but I am so wore out. I guess I am just not one of those people who can work five days straight. I like my schedule to very.
I picked up some bread some HyVee tonight and Chris is going to make me french toast in the morning. I am excited, but then not really, because he going to make it for me at 6 in the morning. I need to call Linda tomorrow too.
Oh, and I so going to bed now, Jeremy is standing behind me singing the crabs song. It is from Dave Chapelle. I am not sure if I spelled his last name right.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Low Bid Auctions

I found this cool site with these low bid auctions. They have this easy to follow system where you win the auctions by having the most unique low bid.
Once you get onto the site it has a simple two minute video you can watch explaining how to play the game. Or you can take a few minutes at your own pace and read the instructions on the page. Basically, you try to get the most unqiue low bid and then you win the prize, they pay for shipping and handling as well. The only thing you may have to pay for is taxes, depending on state!
Then when you bid on prizes, you recieve tokens to play on their online games as well. When you play these games you get chances to win cash!
You can join with a simple entry form. The only thing you can't do without a premium membership is redeem prizes. Which is ok, because if you win auctions or play games you still win and have fun doing it!


Ok, I guess I haven't written in a while. I am sorry for that. I have been super busy. Usually write toward the end of the day, and my boss has me working everyday this week. So it sucks. But is good, because I am getting tons of hours. I was on register all day today, which wasn't cool. I did nothing but run all day long. I sent a lot of text messages though, lol. I work tomorrow then I have the entire weekend off. I am going to get tons and tons of cleaning cleaning done then. My house is trashed. Zack got a lot of cleaning done today, mostly getting boxes out of the house. I have a date next Tuesday that I am extremely excited about ( and kinda nervous too). I want to get a lot of unpacking done between now and then. I want the house to look really good, in case we decide to come back here, because he is coming here. I just can't wait!!

I think I will be carving my pumpkin this weekend! That should be fun. I wish I could have decorated more for Halloween, but since the move date got pushed back, most of the decor is lost amoung the packed stuff. Coco is super tired. She spent the last few hours running around like a freak! She can be one psycho pup. But I love her so much. I just don't see how I could live without her. She is my baby.

I am still unsure of my Halloween plans, but I will be doing something. If I had more friends, then I would throw a party. Although I am still not sure if I would because I think I would freak out about the time someone spilled something on my new carpet. This is the first carpet I have ever owned that was nice, and clean.

I have gotten two more boxes unpacked, which is good, because I having a hard time finding my pants! I am frustrated though because I can't find the pedal to my sewing machine. It must have gotten separated in the move. I really need it because I bought these huge curtains and I had to split them in half for them to fit the windows. Well now I need to sew up the edges and I can't! I wish I knew where things were! Like we couldn't find the cat food all day long. It was beside the fridge all along, but the cat wasn't happy yo have had to wait. Chris found Zoe laying in the bath tub earlier. She usually lays in the lizard tank under the heat lamp. Oh, and then she owns the windows.
I am going to try harder to keep up on my writing. I love to write, so I just need to make time for it. I ams till collecting those HyVee receipts for the heating aid this winter. I have a stack I need to take over to my moms house. She has a little envelope that she is keeping of them.
I have a fairly long day tomorrow, I have to run a lot of errand. I have to go and buy food, then I have to go to the bank, I would really like to stop by the salvation army, and then Chris wants to take me out to eat since I haven't been in a while. He is going to be running errands with me so it should be fun.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007


I used to read all the time. Like a book a week. I loved it. I lived in my books, each one was a new and exciting adventure. When I was younger my mom said to me she read a lot, but now she doesn't. All I could think back then, was why give up reading? Nothing would ever make me do that. Then one day I realized, that life made me do that. I don't have the time I used to to read. It really bums me out. I have this application on facebook where you list all the books you have read, and I thought oh yeah this will be easy. Because I have read hundreds of books in my time. But then I came to realize it was really hard because of the fact that I have not hardly read anything in forever! It makes me kinda sad. SO I am going to try to bring reading back into me life, because it brought me so much joy.

Monday, October 22, 2007


Well, I think everyone in the house officially has a cold. Jeremy stayed home sick from school today. He feels like crap. Chris is basically dieing. He just doesn't take being sick very well at all. I am up and about, so I am mildly sick. I am debating on taking cold medicine before I go to work. But I hate it so much. It tastes so nasty. I have to go into work early today to fill out paper work. I still don't have a swipe card, but then I am not really bothered by that, because it makes my life easier. I finally turned the heat back on in here today, this house heats itself way too well. So I shut it off a few days ago. Coco is driving me crazy, I can't wait until we get another puppy. She wants to play with me all the time. Her favorite time is when I am sleeping. So I get woke up a lot. Which makes me want to sleep more and more. She bounces around like a little rabbit. It is so cute, but when you're trying to sleep, then it is not so cute. I need to go now and get something to eat......

Sunday, October 21, 2007


I feel I have not posted enough pictures, but have taken plenty, so I am going to put a bunch on this post!